Feels like I already wrote a post on this, hmm? I could go check but the three year old is hovering with a magic wand aimed at my computer. So after my recent stint at the doctor’s where he told me to take it easy and R-E-L-A-X… I’ve decided it’s time to cut out all the unnecessary ‘stuff’ that I have going on in my life. One of the things I really wanted to do this year was sign up for volunteer work at DS’s school. Even though I’m a SAHM, I’m more a WAHM now, but it’s hard to explain that to people. I have to admit I feel like I’m being judged by the volunteering super-mom crowd. Like, I’m there for school drop-off, pick-up, so why am I not there for every other event like they manage to be? Well, I have no choice, I had to let go of that commitment. And I have to let go of the guilt. No point in trying to eliminate excess from our lives if we’re then riddled by guilt for doing it. We all have our stuff, our obligations. Certain ones we can’t get rid of. I have small children and ageing parents (as do soooo many of us, right?) and I’m the go-to kid for my parents. I will drop everything and have dropped everything to sit-in on doctor’s appointments, or even just be a driver. I am committed to homemade food. It’s just in me and the way I was raised (Italian parents. And no, they don’t believe Chef Boyardee was a real Italian). So I can’t really give up on that and while we do get takeout, it’s not nearly enough to make a difference.
I can’t cut out the writing. Not that I’d want to. So I can cut out the extra stuff-I’m adding cleaning to this list. I’m so anal. I get anxiety when the laundry room is overflowing with unfolded laundry. I’m happiest when my laundry room is spotless because it’s indicative of the state of the rest of my home. I need to get over that. Bad thinking! I need to just let it go. Chill. Of course I’d have wine to chill, but now that’s been banned until my stomach is better! Booooooo!!!!!
What else do I stress about? OMG…don’t get me started this could be an entire series of posts…well, every time myself or one of the kids gets a ‘mystery’ illness, my creative mind goes into overdrive…it’s a good thing my husband knows this and usually shoots me down with an ‘are you crazy? how do you come up with this stuff?’ I blame it on being a writer! I get paid to come up with crazy ideas! Well, that’s my story and I’m sticking to it
All right, off to get the kids to school…cue stomach churning!
So we recently headed into downtown Toronto with the kids for a visit with my brother. He’d moved to a new condo and we were dying to see it. The three year old hadn’t been on a train before, nor had she been to the city so this was an epic day for her. Along for the ride was my mom, the seven year old (who loved imparting many words of supposed wisdom of his many trips into the city), myself and the three year old.
Once settled on the train I noticed with dread that we were seated in the section with all the emergency exit signs and pulls. Of course the kids noticed all the brightly coloured, green pulls as well. What ensued was me making a threat that if they were pulled, a policeman would come and put them in jail (okay, I know that’s harsh, but you should have seen the gleam in their eyes as they stared at those emergency handles). The rest of the train ride was uneventful, just the usual stuff like the 3YO refusing to hold my hand as we were disembarking, thus stopping the flow of traffic behind us which resulted in me just hauling her along crying.
We arrived at my brother’s condo which is in the heart of a gorgeous part of the city and on the thirty-seventh floor. Spectacular view-the kids were very impressed. We then headed out for lunch. And oh, I miss this so much about the city…being able to step out your door and WALK everywhere. We had a lovely lunch and wandered around and then went back to his place for a while before heading back to the train and the burbs…
I used to go to school downtown Toronto for two years and I never realized just how much I miss it. DH (from Toronto originally) and I used to go all the time. Since kids…not often. I had a moment while we were walking outside that just gripped me out of nowhere and it was that yearning for my ‘other’ self. The one I rarely think about. The twenty-something, pre-kid-pre-mortgage-version of myself. And even though it was just last decade, it seems as far ago as my childhood. I love my life now, truly I know how blessed I am. But do you ever get those moments where you remember who you were before the truly adult version of yourself?
Well, they aren’t killing me…yet! No, not at all actually. So the last couple of months, I’ve had a gnawing, yuck feeling in my stomach. This happened to me in my twenties…after the husband and I opened our own business and I was dealing with stress of that (the money we’d tied up in the business, the long hours, the unknown fate of the venture) and bridezillas. I’m not a person who gets headaches, but apparently I get my stomach in knots. At that time it was so much worse and took months if not close to a year for me to get back to normal. The ultimate was that I had to give up coffee. Note: not for long, as soon as things were back to normal, I started drinking it again.
Anyway, so this feeling came back this year. It sort of snuck up on me. Finally it was impeding my ability to concentrate. So a trip to the doctor and answering a bunch of questions…a few were priceless-my doctor knows me very well.
“Does the pain get worse at any point during the day?”
Me: “Well, I never wake up with a sore stomach. It usually starts about two hours after I’ve been up with the kids….then it usually goes away about an hour after I put them to bed…”
Doctor: “Mmm hmm.” Slight smile appears on his face as he types this info. (I swear at times I feel like Elaine from Seinfeld and am dying to sneak a peak at my patient file. But we all know how that ended, not to mention poor uncle Leo.)
Me: “But I don’t feel stressed. I feel fine.” (Note: As I type this my kids are running around yelling and fighting. Apparently the 3yo has stolen the 7yo’s ‘smelly pencil’).
Doctor: “Do you drink a lot of coffee?”
Me: Shifts eyes away from doctor’s piercing gaze as the image of one of my Christmas presents from my husband pops into my mind:
“Yes, I drink…a lot of coffee.”
Anyway, long story short, he prescribed some medication…and some tests. I’m down to one cup of coffee a day I’ll never get through that giant canister of coffee beans!) But, whatever…I need to learn to chill I guess…I’ll let you know how that works out.
So what about you guys? This happen to anyone else? Do you get headaches? Stomach aches? Have you sworn off coffee? (Note, as soon as this stomach thing is over I will be upping the coffee intake ever so slightly). What do you do to relax?
What else do I have going on for this release? Today is the last day to enter a GIVEAWAY for a PRINT copy of A RISK WORTH TAKING…and rumour has it there will be a giveaway for a PRINT copy of THE BEST MAN’S BABY as well ;-).
I’ve also added a page to my website that has all things from the Tall Pines Ranch. Be sure to check it out!! And I’ll be adding Cole and Melanie’s playlist as well!
I hope you all fall in love with Cole and Melanie as much as I!!!!!
Widowed rancher Cole Forrester is all about running his family’s ranch and guarding his heart. The last thing he’s looking for is love, but when his little sister can’t make it home to handle some of her wedding details, he’s forced to entertain the event planner, Melanie Simms. Melanie is everything he’s not even remotely interested in: she’s high-society, complicated, and high maintenance. But when he’s stranded with her at his remote cabin in the Colorado mountains, he realizes he’s seriously underestimated her. She’s hiding something about her past from him, but despite everything, he finds himself falling for the last woman he ever expected, and the first woman to make him want to give his heart and risk everything…
As you can probably guess from my long absence from blogging, it’s been a long winter around here! Nothing too serious, just the usual little-kid illnesses that have wreaked havoc on productivity and any spare time…but I’m THRILLED that at the end of this winter, I’ll have my new Indulgence release, The Rancher’s Second Chance. You may have heard me professing my love for the man in this book, Cole Forrester. He’s everything I love in a hero-wounded, rough and tough, but capable of so much tenderness and love. *Sniffle, sniffle* And Melanie…she’s a woman with some dark secrets and her own share of pain. Luckily, Cole is the perfect man to help her heal…They’ll be hitting the virtual shelves this March 10th, 2014. I hope you all fall in love with this couple as much as I have…
If you’ve signed up for my newsletter, you’ll be receiving some release day news, excerpts and exclusive contests so watch out for that!
OH, remember Holly and Quinn from A RISK WORTH TAKING? Well…I’ve got a couple RARE print copies up for grabs on Goodreads! Be sure to ENTER for a chance to win! Good luck
I’m so thrilled that my very first Indulgence book, The Billionaire’s Christmas Baby is being re-released for the holiday season! The holidays are my absolute favourite time of year and Jackson and Hannah, the hero and heroine from this book are very meaningful to me because they were my first couple to hit the virtual shelves! I was also fortunate enough to be able to write a ‘Dear Reader’ letter in this edition-something I’d never done!
The Billionaire’s Christmas Baby is a story about forgiveness, healing, and finding the strength to believe…
To celebrate, I’ll be going on a blog tour (more info soon) with a grand prize. But also, I’ll be sending out a special holiday newsletter for all my subscribers with exclusive contests!
I will also be hanging out on my Facebook page with some cool, holiday related contests, so be sure to check in there too!
What else is new? Well, I’ll be handing in my first round of revisions for my cowboy book-my working title on this one is “The Rancher’s Valentine Wedding” but we all know those titles change This book will be released in March from Indulgence. I can’t wait to share Cole and Melanie with you!!
Well, here I go again with the apologies for not blogging in so long! My summer sort of went from turning in The Doctor’s Saving Grace (Evan’s story, RR#3) to The Best Man’s Baby book release and tour. And then I found out that one of my deadlines got moved up-BIG time. Long story short I started writing my new book at the beginning of September and handed it in last week. Of course during that time there was all the kid-related drama (I swear, my son is always the first kid to catch the first round of colds) and school trips and volunteering…I almost thought I wasn’t going to get it done. But the book has been written…and I totally fell in love with the hero…Cole. He’s a cowboy. Widower. Sniffle, sniffle. Along comes his little sister’s BFF who hates everything about the outdoors and has a major horse phobia…and well, my grumpy rancher happens to have a real soft tender side and is more than willing to help her out. Oh, and there’s a snowstorm…you know how much I love winter! I think I’ve rambled a little too long…but this book is due out in March. It’s the third book in a continuity-the other two books are written by the awesome Rachel Lyndhurst and Inara Scott…
Other release news? Well, you’ve all been so awesome and I know you’re dying to find out what has happened to poor Evan Manning and that horrific car crash he was involved in…and the woman he saves. I’m thrilled to say that Evan’s story is coming out this February 2014. If you’ve signed up to my newsletter, you’ll be notified when it releases! And I’m thinking I need to do a special contest just for my newsletter subscribers because you’ve all been so awesome and so supportive. I’d love to run a contest just for you when Evan’s book releases!
So what am I up to now? Well, it’s kind of a super-secret project (I know, I hate when people write that and now here I am writing that!). As soon as I can share what it’s about, I will…
I hope you’ve all had a great start to the fall! Fall and winter are my favourite seasons…I love writing when there’s rain and snow…
I always love hearing from you, don’t be a stranger! Happy reading and writing!
Lisa Orsino!!! Congratulations Lisa! Lisa’s pic was of Matt Bomer…and if I had to cast Jake again I would pick him. Turns out, he was not my original celebrity choice for Jake Manning, but no one selected the celebrity in my head…if you’re an old follower of this blog you’ll know my favourite celebrity crush is Christian Bale, and I recast him tons of my books, depending on the picture
Here’s the pic I had in my mind for Jake:
Thanks to all of you who tweeted me gorgeous pics-definitely made my days brighter
Thanks again for following along my blog tour and supporting me!
It’s been a crazy, fun week since The Best Man’s Baby was released! Since the response to this book has been so wonderful, I’m thinking it’s time to celebrate with a new contest! I had a blast seeing your favourite lines in the Twitter contest…and I think this one might be even more fun…
All you have to do is head over to my Facebook page, look for the contest post, and then answer (with a link or post of the pic) of the celebrity that reminds you most of Jake Manning. I know the celebrity that I have in my head-and whoever picks the same celebrity wins a $20 Starbucks Gift Card! You know how much I love coffee-and you know that Jake owed Claire a coffee, so I thought that would be a good one Then please send out a tweet about the contest with a link to the FB page!
I’ll pick the winner Sunday night. If two or more people pick the same winning celebrity, I’ll do a draw for the gift card among those. I’m just dying to see who you guys think Jake Manning resembles in the celebrity world…